When I really look at the spiritual industry right now, I see these two groups or types of practitioners running the same underlying pattern in opposite directions. The first group is financially contracted; they’re genuinely gifted, deeply trained, and chronically stuck at the same financial ceiling regardless of what they try.

I've spent years following stories about cult leaders. Documentaries, podcasts, books, and deep rabbit holes that my closest friends know well by now. It's not morbid curiosity that pulls me there; it's recognition.

Have you been experiencing the type of disorientation that tends to occur in gifted women at mid-career? I don’t mean burnout, though it often is labelled as such. It’s not depression either, and it’s not perimenopause (but can definitely be happening alongside).

On shared humanity, honest limits, and the guide who points you back to yourself

I was not raised in a particular faith. My grandparents brought me to the United Church when I was small, but because my parents came from different Christian traditions, they decided to let me find my own way. I am grateful for that.

On giving your power away, what fills the vacuum, and how you find your way back

I can trace it back to around 1998, though its full weight did not announce itself until 2019. I had been carrying something for years, something I mistook for my own, that shaped how I moved through the world in ways I’m really only able to see clearly now.

On bypassing powerlessness, borrowed certainty, and the return to your own knowing

Something is moving through the collective right now that I have been sitting with for several weeks, watching it take shape not just with the women I speak with but in the broader cultural conversation and experience.