I've spent years following stories about cult leaders. Documentaries, podcasts, books, and deep rabbit holes that my closest friends know well by now. It's not morbid curiosity that pulls me there; it's recognition.

On giving your power away, what fills the vacuum, and how you find your way back

I can trace it back to around 1998, though its full weight did not announce itself until 2019. I had been carrying something for years, something I mistook for my own, that shaped how I moved through the world in ways I’m really only able to see clearly now.